Beginning Down the Long Road

The beginning of one's path on where they are to be in life isn't always an easy one and while there are many doubts along the way, depressed thoughts, and wondering if anything you write is sent out to a world of nothing, you continue to ponder on, hoping that someone hears you.

My road, especially now, isn't an easy one when it comes to finding a writing job, but writing novels and sharing my past about my writing is one way of putting myself out there. In the last nine years I have written about ten or eleven novels. My first one was written in the ninth grade, hence where my writing path began. I had wanted to write a novel for years, but could never finish it. It either just didn't feel right or was down right  pathetic. Like anyone would want to read about a pony and her family who adopted her or something like that. I haven't written stuff like that and hope to never do again. But, with determination in that year I committed to writing a novel and finished it. I remember being so happy that I finally finished a novel! At the young age of fourteen, almost fifteen at the time. The next year I wrote another one and that summer I did as well and then a few more up until the end of high school. They all sat, and continue to, in a big box marked, "Novels" patiently waiting to be read one day on neat, clean typed pages in a hard covered book with a glossy cover.

I guess you could say that is pretty impressive for someone so young to write that many books even though none were published at the time. At least one more novel was written while I was in college, around sophomore year and part of one for my senior seminar class. Currently, many ideas have come to my head, unfortunately when I'm about to fall asleep and I'm too tired to get up and write it down. Don't you HATE when that happens? Along with novel titles as well which somehow get forgotten about too. But when I do come up with ideas and I'm around pen and paper, small exerpts of the novel are written and I continue to think about the novel idea for future reference. Beginning stages of a novel have been written, bu currently, I am working on a novel that I wrote the summer I was seventeen, which happens to be my favorite. Going  back and editing and changing chapters is a lot harder than it looks. But I hope in time I can be finished with it and find someone who loves it as much as I do and willing to publish it and pass it along to the world. I'd tell you the whole story but I wouldn't want to ruin it before it's finished! 

Anyway, my path or road or whatever you want to call it may have been simple in high school or even in college, but I now know that it isn't easy. It's not a fairytale where everything magically comes to place. There is a lot of hard work and determination along the way. I know I'll have doubts, even today earlier I did, I'll be honest, but how can I give up something so easily? My dream? The one thing I've always wanted to happen to me? Somehow Danielle Steele, Nicholas Sparks, Jodi Picoult, and James Patterson found it along the way somehow.

So, whoever is reading this, don't give up on what you do. Maybe there might be something out there different for you, the same for me, who knows? But right now, I will continue to write and someday I hope I succeed and make everyone proud. Including my fiance, my number one fan. <3

"A Dream is a Wish your Heart Makes"

The small minds of children brings happiness and joy to parents as they see their children growing and learning about the world beyond the front yard. But there is also wonder and a fair amount of curiosity of what their dreams and thoughts are, how they grow with them and how they change overtime. Sometimes they drift away from those certain dreams and explore other ones to pursue, but during other periods of their lives, they somehow come back to their original dreams, thoughts from when they were young and you hope that they achieve those early dreams and they become a success through them and that it brings not only you joy, but them as well.

Previously, in my first post, I mentioned how I used to make up stories about Abraham Lincoln from the book my grandmother had which now sits in our dining room china closet. My idea of writing came about when I was seven years old and I'd make up stories in my head, write them down on paper or scribble in my notebook pretending I was writing a story. Of course, I've thought about other career paths, and still do, but somehow, I've always gone back to writing since it is something I've always known. Something that helped me express myself as expressing my thoughts verbally has never been my strong suit.

As for Abraham Lincoln, from what my grandmother has told me and still tells me like she did this past Easter, is how I'd make up stories about him and his mother, Mary Todd Lincoln, that had nothing to do with their real lives. I guess you can say that our 16th president helped me become the writer that I have strived to be. I know that writing isn't easy, but somehow, someway, I always come back to it. Too many thoughts jump around in my mind, story titles, pieces of scenes I picture in my mind. 

God has drawn me back to writing and I hope that He will guide me in the right direction on where to go with it and hope that one day I can be a success and that other writers such as myself can get the inspiration to follow their dreams and not forget how they began in the first place and always go back to that.
Jeremiah 29:11: "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end."

"Do what you do best, not from what others tell you"

Passion and thoughts on what I do best has never been far from my mind. In today's society we are pressured into academic careers that all revolve around technology and finance. While these careers are very important, they are most certainly not my strong suit.
No, I've put myself into the mysterious world of the written word. Creativity, coming up with something of my own, has always been something I strived for.
Ever since I was a girl I'd make up stories. I''d make up ones about Abraham Lincoln! But that's a story for another time!
When people come across me they regard me as shy, quiet, with ont much to say. While that maybe true, i do have alot to say, I'm just better about it through writing.
For writing is what I do best. Or, at least I hope it is. Is it wrong to say that?
As a college gradute I have been tryiung to find my place in the world. After a year, I've come to the realization that it's harder than I thought it would be.
I've had my doubts, believe me, as I'm sure you have to whoever is reading this.
But, I've decided to get my word out in someway, shape or form. So, I introduce to you my blog. A blog that shows my passion, my creativity and the possiblity of faith through all that I do whether simple or extravagant.